The harder you fight – the harder the fight becomes

The greatest battle we ever fight is generally one people never see.

In our heads we tell ourselves things that motivate us or move us to tears.

What is the voice in your head telling you?

Most of my life, that voice was telling me everything that was wrong with me.

It was raging a battle with everything I did.

I wasn’t good enough.

I’m too awkward.

I raised my fist at the sky and yelled “WHY???” angrily as I suffered devastating blow after blow. I even began to wonder if I was cursed. There were three things I wanted in life: to be a novelist, to be loved, and to inspire others.

I freelanced for years and decided to open this business in hopes of perpetuating these dreams.

Then, I promptly ran around like a fly on a leash – much like the fly – I was just running in circles. I repeated mistakes because I wasn’t learning. I ran this business like a freelancer. Most importantly, I was not making money, inspiration, or even work I liked. My email filled up with people who wanted free promotion on spot light. I met a lot of people trying to network. I thought I was taking the right steps.

I was wrong.

I was suffering.

Then, I started to realize some harsh truths about myself.

I spent most of my life doing things for people – when they could do it for themselves. My upbringing forced me to believe ‘being of service’ was the only way I had value. I *needed* to do things for people, but I was doing the wrong things. As harsh as it is, nothing I have done for my promotions is unique. The things I offered were not much different than they could get elsewhere. It was probably easier to get through to me, but I was doing no good.

I started focusing on editing books. I got clients. However, I noticed I was actually coaching them through the pitfalls I have experienced. I helped people with editing, but it really did not have much to do with editing – unfortunately, I couldn’t see that.

The voice in my head that told me I was worthless also told me I was “just bad at running a business”. That voice started a battle against what I really wanted, and I was suddenly at odds.

I spent the last month or two in almost constant inner-torment.

Eventually, I finally figured some things out. I am still a work in progress, but I’m finally competing against the correct opponent – myself. I aim to be better than I was and bring everyone who cares to join. Most importantly, I will leave the self-defeating thoughts, negative depictions, horrible upbringing and the voices of people who want to destroy my talents in the past.

I am changing the organization of Daee Dreamz. I will still provide services found on my page, but I will not advertise them. I will now focus on offering services that don’t come out of convenience.

I will provide services no one can find anywhere else. I will be unique in promoting, inspiring and writing about being successful. True success, like our inner battles, can’t always be seen from the outside. True success is something that a person “knows”. It is something a person recognizes about themselves. It does not mean there will be no problems. It just means the problems won’t remove a person’s faith in themselves and their abilities.

I look forward to helping people recognize the important parts of themselves they neglected.

I also look forward to seeing you all as Daee Dreamz progresses

As always, I love hearing from you and I can be reached via text/phone 612) 217-4065 or email at Doreen.lucky@daeedreamz.com